haha almost five months since my last blog. so much has happened,yeah?

first heard this song from american idol and i've been playing it over and over ever since. the music video is soooo cute!

Daniel Powter
Bad Day

Where is the moment when we need it the most
You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost
They tell me your blue sky's faded to grey
They tell me your passion's gone away
And I don't need no carrying on

Stand in the line just ahead of the law
You're faking a smile with the coffee you go
You tell me your life's been way off line
You're falling to pieces every time
And I don't need no carrying on

Cause you had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
The camera don't lie
You're coming back down and you really don't mind
You had a bad day
You had a bad day

Well you need a blue sky holiday
The point is they laugh at what you say
And I don't need no carrying on

You had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
The camera don't lie
You're coming back down and you really don't mind
You had a bad day
You had a bad day

Sometimes the system goes on the blink and the whole thing it turns out Wrong
You might not make it back and you know that you could be well oh that Strong
Well I'm not wrong

So where is the passion when you need it the most
Oh you and I
You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost

Cause you had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
You've seen what you like
And how does it feel for one more time
You had a bad day
You had a bad day
You had a bad day

 

You are my Rock...i will be Still

there's a voice in the silence,
piercing the darkness of my own selfish soul
there's a cry deep within me,
a yearning to feel you 
i look to you, Lord

i can't pretend i don't run from the feelings
i'm trying to hide
must get the focus off me and my problems
i look to the cross

you are my Rock
on You i stand
safe from the storms that surround me
you're my only Rock, in you i can
don't have to rely on my own strength

been playing this song over and over tonight. when i say "over and over" it means again and again for hours...as former housemates can attest to. {jill, kate, ewen, hazel... }.

for several nights now i've been racking my brains trying to make sense of my surroundings... questions on what, why, when...how is my current situation connected to God's promise? my puppies up for sale have been getting sick and the business i'm supposed to start next month has been put on hold indefinitely. until when, i don't know. with the way things are right now it might not even push through at all

i feel exhausted. battered. almost defeated. but as i'm about to give up, He urges me in His gentle voice to just hold on. i don't have to think. i don't have to understand. my Father is sovereign. all He asks is that i keep my faith. praise God i don't have to rely on my own strength. He is my rock!

      hide me now
     under your wings
     cover me
     within your mighty hand

     when the oceans rise and
     thunders roar
     i will soar with you above the storm
     Father you are king over the flood
     i will be still, know you are God

     find rest my soul
     in Christ alone
     know his power
     in quietness and trust

Currently Listening God He Reigns: Live Worship From Hillsong Church By Hillsong see related

when the bright side is dim,,,

it's the last day of september. it's bright and sunny outside.

i'm trying to think of the things i should be thankful for this month,,,but it fails me. i know they are a lot,,,i am POSITIVE God blessed with with so much this september,,, but this morning when i woke up i just can't seem to see beyond the clouds

been in an emotional rollercoaster the past week. or maybe two weeks na...but who's counting?

it's not me to be in a slump for a long time,,,this has to end now!

now where to vent,,,

Currently Reading The Heavenly Man: The Remarkable True Story of Chinese Christian Brother Yun By Paul Hattaway see related

Seven Whatevers

Seven things you like the most:

1. rainy days and thunder storms

2. sunrise and sunsets

3. the wind blowing on my face

4. spas

5. wolfgang puck

6. cats

7. having my nails done,hehe

Seven important things in your bedroom:

1. Bible

2. books

3. pillows

4. lamp

5. aromatic oils

6. lotion

7. journal

Seven random facts about you:

1. i'm a cry baby and i hate it

2. i haven't gotten over duchess' and mokey's (my cats) death. it's been six years

3. i used to have a fear for cockroaches...now i can kill them with one swipe without screaming my lungs out

4. i'm currently hooked on House. downloading episode 2 of season 2 now,,,bwehehe

5. i prefer tea over coffee

6. i love to snorkel and i don't care if i don't know how to swim

7. i have a passion for desserts

Seven things you plan to do before you die :

1. travel, travel, travel!

2. become a millionare

3. spend my millions on mission trips, yeah!

4. skydive

5. dine on the same table with Steve Murrell, Rice Brooks,and Phil Bonasso

6. get over duchess and mokey and get myself a russian blue

7. raise Godly children

Seven things you can do:

1. finish one season of a tv series in two sittings (CSI, Desperate Housewives, Cold Case, House)

2. watch An Affair to Remember over and over and over and over again,,, and still cry in the end

3. stay in my room for a whole week and not see anyone (loved that in Baguio)

4. travel alone

5. finish a 6-inch blueberry cheesecake in one sitting

6. be so engrossed in what I¡¯m doing I forget to eat,,, for a whole day

7. clean our whole house when depressed

Seven things you can't do:

1. have my QT early in the morning

2. swim over six feet without a life vest

3. see myself with kids at my age

4. take care of a makulit toddler for more than 30 minutes,,, unless they're asleep

5. live without lotion

6. text for hours on end

7. resist double dutch ice cream

Seven things that attract you to the opposite sex:

1. love for God

2. passion for what he does

3. good hygiene

4. sense of humor

5. relationship with family

6. leadership qualities

7. smile

Seven things you say the most and are known for saying:

1. wala lang

2. date tayo!

3. hay nako...

4. camown!

5. ah ah¡¦

6. God bless you!

7. where will you put your faith?

Seven celeb crushes (whether local or foreign):

1. mel gibson

2. adam sandler

3. lee dong gun

4. brad pitt

5. chow yun fat

6. johnny depp

7. piolo pascual hahaha

Seven people you want to torture to take this quiz :

1. my dear sir frank

2. hon

3. ate dina

4. pat

5. lai :p

6. riane

7. YOU

to love or not to love

" The ultimate risk anyone ever takes is to love, for as C.S. Lewis says, 'Love anything and your heart will be wrung and possibly broken. If you want to make sure of keeping it intact you must give it to no one, not even an animal.'"  (John Eldredge, Wild at Heart)